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Before You Read:

This blog serves as my own personal diary and I use it to help me log the things I've done throughout the day because my memory has been getting progressively worse. It also serves as a way for friends I may not speak to on a day to day basis to keep up with me! I don't go into any details about my personal life and any illnesses I have but there will be general mentions of them. I also talk about my religion ( buddhism ) so I suggest not reading if you are triggered by that. I don't entertain any negativity and if you're a former friend here to stalk me I promise you will not get anything out of it , you're just wasting your time. I will try to update daily but I may forget or not have time to , in those cases I'll make a double entry.

Please feel free to contact me on any socials linked to the left however please know that I prioritize protecting my peace and I will not post / respond to anything I think isn't worth my time or could cause me stress. I'm a pretty nice person so please don't be scared to talk to me :)

June 27th 2025

First entry! I just finished fixing everything and it's now 1:22am... Today has been pretty decent , I can't say I've done much this summer. I've hung out with friends , had family over , went to temple and I celebrated my birthday early but nothing really worth noting. I've been falling asleep around 6am recently which is.... Not great , but my gf wakes up around that time so it makes it all okay in my book. But I slept super late ( early ? ) yesterday and I woke up at 2pm then just laid in bed for a good while. The rest of my day is really a blur , I've been disassociating really badly recently and I can't really remember what I did. I do know I played IDV with Kil , Envy and Nix and it was really fun :) I'm always anxious about introducing my friends to eachother but I think it all went well. I'm currently on call with Bug right now while he's struggling with Rentry LOL. I also got to meet Kali ( Bug's gf ) which is super awesome. I'm happy she considers me close enough to introduce to someone that important ( though I was the reason they got together... I'm basically cupid ). I'm really happy I'm friends with Bug , she's been so kind to me ever since I met him back in February ( ? guesstimating from when I joined Wondercord ) and it's so easy to have a conversation with her. That's my e-daughter fr. Today's been a blur but I don't think anything bad happened so yay! I think tomorrow I'm gonna email my school about their health insurance and finish setting up a therapy appointment. I'm also going to try and take a walk , though my body's been in a lot of pain due to my flare ups I think I can manage a walk around the neighborhood. Hoping to stay consistent with writing this tomorrow lol... Might make some alter specific sites too...

June 28th 2025

Woah! Second entry woot woot good on me! I called Bug for 7 whole hours and I didn't sleep until 7am oops... I woke up at 3pm and texted my girlfriend.. She's so cute I love her so so much. Today marked 2 months together !!! So freaking awesome. I left a Discord server I was in cuz I was getting stressed out but I'm chilling now , I had some chicken and mashed potatos... Mmmmmm.... Mashed potatos and gravy is becoming a favorite for me... Which is crazy because I used to hate it LOL.. I'm still not recovered from the Karma video... VIVINOS WHEN I FUCKING GET YOU. I ALSO GOT MY COMM BACK TODAY!!!!!!!!! AAH!! I got the Dogbird MV redraw comm back from Zero and it's actually so beautiful I'm so so in love with it ! I even turned it into my lock screen wallpaper! Here and here !! I wasn't able to do the things I wanted today because I slept in so late and got sidetracked T__T but I'm gonna try to hold myself accountable tomorrow ! I don't think there's much else to write ? But I wouldn't trust it from how horrible my memory's been recently... If there is I hope someone else ( Aimé please ) corrects me in the next entry !!

June 29 2025

i dont remember today nor do i remember yesterday. all i know is i started getting really anxious a few hours ago so i've been meditating to om tare tuttare ture mama ayuh punya jnana pushtim kuru svaha and praying to white tara to help me navigate the shit i'm going through as well as help me recover from my sickness. i got to 400 on my mala counter and i'm gonna try to do 400 more before i go to bed. it's 9pm so it's significantly earlier than i usually go to bed. oh i also asked wangchuck vena for good meditation videos since he's a monk and all. hopefully he'll get back to me by tomorrow. ok that's all. no i lied. i posted to my priv about feeling upset and wav sent me art they've been working on for my dtiys and as birthday gifts and i started tearing up. they're so so kind. i care about them so much and i love that we can connect on the basis that we're both nepali.

June 30 2025

i'm like really disassociated right now and my brain is really foggy ^^; i remember i slept early yesterday , woke up at 2am , a few hours after i did my prayer and worship at the mandir my dad built downstairs uh and then i went on a walk where i saw a kitty i dont remember much i did after that but i'm watching a new anime right now! it's an isekai ofc , this guy gets reincarnated as the neglected and hated child of nobles and is raising his brother as best he can... it's so freaking cute oh and art fight is tmr !! im hyped

July 1 2025

IM LOCKED IN ON ART FIGHT OMFG